CASSANDRA

2011-10-12T00:59:00.000-07:00

I wanted to get into IEP so much, but it's impossible already :( No one to be blame, except myself. My fault for not working hard enough in my studies, regretted and nothing can change the fact now. I think i started to dislike school even more, no motivation, no determination. FML.

2011-07-18T08:57:00.001-07:00

F FOR FAILURE :(

2011-06-09T10:32:00.000-07:00

HEHEHE so i took my BTT today, & surprisingly i managed to pass! (Oh well, i didn't really study for it, only glance through half of the book) I am really elated about it because i'm able to take my PDL and practical. However, still got two months to go before i can take my PDL sia, then i haven't even book my practical yet >< Lolol! After i got my driving license, weeeee independent! Can go anywhere i want, but first i need a car :(

So anyway, i think that one and a half week of holidays isn't enough for me at all! Reasons are: I haven't finish my java assignment (only half done omfg!), i haven't revise anything for my UTs yet, and lastly i didn't enjoy myself to the fullest ! TSK!

I think i need to sleep now, because i'm meeting iris and xihao at 1pm tomorrow ._. Gosh, i don't think i can make it in time sia :/ & i guess i won't sleep early one loh, hehehe.

Ciaoz ciaoz!

2011-06-03T21:54:00.000-07:00

Rotted at home for the past two days, life seriously damn miserable lol! I wonder how i manage to rot at home the times, when i was still mapling. So i guess i need to plan some mugging period with peeps, if not i will not start with my revision and my tests starts on 15june, gosh! Not forgetting, java assignment not done yet -'- Is there any kind soul with good programming skills, wants to guide me through my java assignment LOL!

Anyway, erik's birthday chalet was awesome! Hehe we had combo in that particular night - pool, bowling, midnight 3D movie and followed by playing sparkles at the park. About six in the morning, all of us went for a bathe and had our breakfast at macdonalds. I remember how i lost my voice that day, and caused me to be mute for the next three days. But i never regret for losing my voice because that day was really AWESOME, though the time spent was short, however i did enjoy myself to the fullest!

Going to leave my house in another 2hours time for work. Feeling kind of lazy today, whole body aching plus headache now, wtf.

Anyway, i really think that money can't buy happiness. Even if it really does, i guess this happiness will not last long, only for short period of time. For me, family, friends and loved ones, they're the ones who can bring happiness to me. Lol kind of random but yea, just feel like typing this out.

Ciaoz ciaoz!

2011-05-10T05:26:00.000-07:00

Sigh, java never fails to drain all my energy, 7 hours of java seriously can kill me. I really want to fall in love with java, but i guess java simply hates me ):

Anyway, idk why, randomly thought of how smiley used to be last time, and now ... Everyone seems to have their own friends, none of them seems to bother about this group anymore. Hmm i know that many things did happen last time, due to too much emotional were put in, but that was all purely because we are friends, and we truly care about one another, so what's wrong with that? People used to ask me not to put too much hope in this group, the more i heck care about this group, the worsen the friendship is going to be. Am i doing the right thing now? I just wish that we could just hang out like we used to be, am not referring to hang out everyday, but perhaps 2-3times per week? I understand that all of them have their own friends now, am i really asking too much again?

I really miss those secondary school times, because i got friends to talk to and share with. But for now, sometimes it's even so difficult to find someone to be my listening ears, because no one truly listens to what i'm saying, because the one i always talk with, has a barrier with some of them, and i can feel that, she don't even give a damn to the friends i truly regard as 'friends'. Yea, i know she's popular, she has many friends, she don't really have to care about them, so neither will i force her to to retrieve back the group. This time, i am really alone, hopefully i can endure it for another one year and so! Aww what's with me? Why do i feel that my eyes are teary?

Hmm i didn't realise that i've type so much ._. But well, felt a bit better after expressing what i've been feeling. Time to bath and spend time with my lover (java). One day i am so going to make java love me!

Ciaoz ciaoz!

2011-05-03T21:27:00.000-07:00

I don't know why, sometimes i really do feel that i'm such a failure, can't do well in my studies, neither in my work ):

Yesterday's java was driving me crazy, i didn't manage to submit one of my codes, and i went to catch some zzz's. B'cos i felt as though my energy had totally drained out. But i guess this isn't an excuse, i'm just plainly lazy. I really wonder when can i be like those top scholars, work hard for their own grades, own futures. I can see that all of my friends are trying their best to perform well in school and score good grades. However, what about me? Sometimes don't even give a damn about it. I guess i'm unable to take IEP alrd, perhaps shall get prepared to do PP instead haiz.

Hmm anyway, xi hao's birthday on this sunday, bought red wine for him. Few weeks later, will be erik's birthday. Everyone's birthdays coming, hehe. Happy occasions, i like i like!

2011-04-24T05:58:00.000-07:00

FUCK YOU FUCK YOU, WHO YOU THINK YOU'RE? I TREAT YOU AS ONE OF THE ELDERLY THATS WHY I RESPECTED YOU THOUGH SOMETIMES YOU'RE REALLY VERY ANNOYING AND BLAMES ME FOR NOTHING EVEN THOUGH I AM NOT THE ONE WHO'S AT FAULT BUT THE OTHERS. BUT SERIOUSLY, I HAD ENOUGH OF YOU YESTERDAY. YOU THINK YOU'RE ONE OF THE AUNTY WHO HAD WORKED FOR SO MANY YEARS OVER THERE, MEANS YOU GOT THE PRIVILEGE TO SCOLD ME? I TELL YOU NO NO NO & NO WAY! NEITHER MY PARENTS NOR ANY OF MY TEACHER SCOLD ME UNTIL SO JIALAT, WHO SAYS YOU'VE THE RIGHTS? ONE DAY IF I GOT MY DIPLOMA AND YOU'RE WORKING UNDER ME, I AM SURE YOU WILL BE THE ONLY ONE WHO'S SUFFERING!

Woah i'm finally done with my venting. Was really fed up yesterday, wanted to quit my work after next week's schedule, but xi hao convinced me. Positively for now i'm still working over there, one day i'll prove to you that the hurtful sentence you scolded me is totally wrong!

Anyway, i'm glad that i got great friends at my workplace ^^ Thank you so much, hehe!

Oh by the way, i did badly for my daily grades, sigh so difficult to get good grades now, fuck up. But still, i will try my very best to score better. Perhaps i should just depend on my UT grade LOL!

2011-04-16T21:02:00.000-07:00

Gotta go back to attend school in less than 24hours time ): & i haven't got all the things i need for school! Hehe actually i just wanted to get new ones. Anyway, am not buying vans covered shoes anymore, cause the ones i like don't have my size, which's quite frustrating! So am going to cwp with ziling later, to get my bag, & perhaps a new laptop bag.

Oh anyway, sometimes i guess people get closer to us, & the status changed to 'friend' because they will gain an advantage from us, this kind of friends, we don't even have to give a damn, just say BYEBYE!

Before i forget to mention, rp's system has changed. Our daily grades for the whole 15weeks will be included for gpa, which is a bad bad bad bad, extremely bad thing cause i can neither partial nor pon school ): & wait, my classes are located at block E6, but where's E6? Gosh ...!

2011-04-15T08:49:00.000-07:00

Omfg, i spent more than 120bucks in just two days! Am going to shop with ziling tomorrow, thus i've to spend about another few hundred bucks? Hehe cause i wanted to buy new bag and vans shoe. Perhaps getting more clothes as school's reopening pretty soon.

Oh anyway, went to malaysia with huishan yesterday, while kh was our tour guide lol! Bought three tops & masks.

Haiya, so reluctant to go back to school >:

2011-04-11T06:41:00.000-07:00

Sigh i am so freaking tired, idk why and there's work tomorrow. Don't feel like attending school next week too, just wanna stay at home and sleep like a pig. Omg, i used to behave like a pig everyday, thats why i go to work, now i kindda sick of going to work, and just feel like sleeping at home for the whole day.

Oh anyway, am going malaysia on thursday, then i think i'm going to cancel my friday's work. Hmm saturday going out with sng wu kong, haha no lah miss sng zi ling, i guess.

Seriously damn tired lah, idk why. Dear mind, please be awake when i'm at work and stop day dreaming! Hehe.

2011-04-10T04:13:00.000-07:00

Hehehe the two lovely hamsters above were bought by me on friday, when i was out with my family. So friday, went to pray with my family due to ching ming festival. After which, we head over to northpoint, most of the expenses used was being fork out by me, as a result i overspent :x

Work tomorrow ): & ziling's back to work, but 100% we will be working at different places sigh, not only that, our timings for work are also different sigh x2. Oh anyway, holidays's ending pretty soon, & i'm very reluctant to go back, haha idk why either.

Shall watch few animes while waiting for my hair to dry before i catch some zzz's. Baibai!

2011-04-06T06:23:00.001-07:00

TIRED TTM >:

2011-04-04T06:57:00.000-07:00

Okay, i'm quite exhausted now because have been walking for the whole day, today. Fyi, i've work in the morning tomorrow oh my gosh, haiz ): So seri, kh, ziling & i went over to fareast and bugis. Bought a few stuffs and i spent more than 50bucks zzz.

Before heading home, the four of us went to gift a name. Ziling and i did the keychain thinggy, hehe like it ttm, especially the monkeys both of us had. A day out with three crazy people really makes my day awesome, haha next outing shall be plan on next week!

Gotta do my mask now, then sleep, need to wake up at 4am plus later ): Goodbye peeps!

2011-04-02T06:03:00.000-07:00

Haiyaaa, i guess i'll be going to malaysia alone because one by one cannot go due to permission not allow, lolol! Actually i didn't expect much too, as everytime not everyone seems to be steady one -.-

Hmph, so anyway almost quarrel with someone at workplace yesterday, because he said: ' being posted to RP, means going to ITE. ' Damn kaopei can. So what's with ITE and RP, nothing wrong what, moreover RP is being state as the third polytechnic now. & that bloody china guy is from TP, not trying to compare or whatever, but TP is in the forth place now, he still dare to kpkb -'-

Hmm so school's going to reopen in about 16 days time. Kindda not looking forward for it anymore lol. Oh and i seriously think that i should go on diet soon, but i cannot resist the tempation of food, hehe. Thus i guess my diet plan will fail, again! Working schedule for next week not out yet, scarly no work, woah then i'll be rotting at home sia ):

Okay bai!

2011-03-29T05:30:00.000-07:00

Hmm, super pekchek today as i wasted one hour at my work place doing nothing, due to TCC. So work was average today, just that i keep scalded myself LOL, & after work, i went over to cityhall's HMV to get my skullcandy earpiece, hehe RED!

Oh anyway, all of the sudden, i kindda miss the times in W16F; when smiley used to have lunch together every school days, hang out together after school, dota-ing & etc.
Haha, i miss my side parting too, LOL! Haiz, work tomorrow ): But nevermind, because i'm going to malaysia next week, hehe.

2011-03-28T06:50:00.000-07:00

Life's been really ... either occupied or boring .

Anyway, i got my pay today, & had bought a few things . Like sports shoe, flat shoe, masks and etc. Haha before that, went to post office and renew my passport with mum and dad . So after my passport is done, it's time to go to malaysia hehe ( KH, i know you will read my blog, make sure you bring me to eat delicious food hor !) .

Time to catch some zzz's cause im starting work at 7am ! ): Goodnight peeps !

2011-03-16T05:00:00.000-07:00

I'm so freaking tired >:

I don't want to work, neither do i want to stay at home, haiz.

Smiley outing on this coming tuesday, but it seems like quite a number of them can't attend, should i stop planning outings ?

2011-03-09T04:10:00.000-08:00

4E10' 2009 Chalet!

4E10's chalet was pretty awesome, with great classmates around.

So huishan and i were drunk on the first day of the chalet, actually i'm not really drunk, just feeling extremely giddy, haha so overall still concious with what i'm doing/saying. Anyway, 4E10's classmates went over to huishan's current class chalet to pick huishan and i back to the chalet in order for us to bathe and rest. I felt kindda guilty for occupying about half the bed on the first night -.-

Second day, did nothing much and had bbq at night. Mr Phua came and gave us a 50bucks treat on anything available in Cheers. Went for a mid-night walk at around 12plus, was unable to join them for the fire sparkles cause i've to go back home due to having a dentist appointment the following day >:

Can't wait for the next gathering with 4E10's peeps. Hehe!

Oh anyway, back to work tomorrow haiz. Hopefully that aunty could shut her mouth because her mouth seriously stinks ttm, haha ok i'm evil.

2011-03-01T04:19:00.000-08:00

Hehe photographs took during my birthday, has been pretty lazy to scan them, so just took a picture of it when i was viewing it just now.

Anyway, work was average today, just that my foot are kindda pain now, due to high heels ): Haha but nvm, left three more days, i am able to stop suffering!

Oh and after work today, went to meet up with seri and kh for a while, not forgetting having dinner together!

So so so next week everyone's gonna be busy, no one to go out with me, only choice left is to work, i guess? Haiz!!!

Time to plan out an outing when i'm free :D

2011-02-28T05:31:00.000-08:00

Seriously, totally worn out ):
& y'know what, i kind of miss my schooling life, can't wait to go back to school now, and spend my days with my funny friends, haha!

2011-02-27T04:14:00.000-08:00

Cassandra is extremely tired! However, just five more days, & she can go back to her PIG status, hehehe :D Gambatte ~

Oh anyway, 我喜欢看'Fairy Tail', but One Piece will always be my favourite anime!

Can't wait to go out with smiley, but no one is planning ): Sigh!

2011-02-26T04:49:00.000-08:00

ENDURANCE - ONE MORE WEEK!

Sigh i miss my friends, i miss smiley. I want to have outing soon, with them ):

2011-02-24T18:43:00.000-08:00

Perseverance !!!

2011-02-23T00:08:00.000-08:00

One semester ; fifteen weeks ; one hundred & five days, time really flies.
It's school holidays now, yet i got nothing to do everyday ): All of the members in smiley either go back to their countries, or go for work.

Somtimes, i really do hate RP system - changing class every semester.
It's because, i don't bear to leave both my friends & classmates. We've been together to solve per problem each day, doing worksheets and presentations together as a team, & lastly not forgetting, hang out as usual.

W46G ♥

My favourite girls in W46G ♥

& Smiley ♥♥♥

See how much we've grown & changed within this two semesters. Although there may be conflicts, misunderstandings and etc, i still ♥ you all as smiley. Hehe, & always put on a smile either when we're sad or happy, cause we're from the smiley :D